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[paganfrog]

well this summer just passed i had a fantastic vacation that snapped me out of the depression i didnt realize i was wallowing in. it was great, i had all these thought that ill never allow myself to get too low again. but now, im starting to slip again, the seasons starting to get grotty and the nights are starting too early, and im starting to lose focus on enjoying myself.
i never was able to get out to do many activities by myself away from my son, or even to take him with me. im not native to this area and i never made any contacts to socialise with (im just not into the local hobbies of being in the pub week in week out) im isolated from family and at this time of year i start to feel that.
my usual hobbies consist of reading, handicrafts, geocaching and geocoins. i enjoy these alot when i can have a go at any of them, but im still alone when i do them, my husband grins and bares it when i talk about this or that, but he does have a job to go to, so that means im alone with jack. love him to bits but i admit it im lonely.

im not looking for sympathy or anything lie that. im just recognising my weakness before it has me in its clutches again.

just give me a slap to shock me out of this please.

[Cheesy Pigs]

I'd slap you, but then you'd need to slap me back

I think a lot of us are going through a bit of a 'funky' phase at the moment. You have more reason to - SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) hits around this time of year for the northern hemispherers.

I have heaps that I have to do, but am getting nothing done. I seem to have lost my motivation. So unfortunately I cannot help, but I can commiserate

[DaFunkyFrogs]

"funky"??? we're pretty funky..........lol and no, we don't have a life........between Mrs Frog & myself, 1 of our puters is all ways on....one of us is surfing & lurking here , there & everywhere.......we don't get to see rain all summer, so when it starts next month, we will enjoy it for the first few days.........so, don't feel alone.............
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[Geo-Gophers]

No way am I going to slap you either , because it's not easy to keep your chin up as the long nights draw in and the news on TV etc is so bleak and depressing at the moment.

We are lucky in a way that where we are down here in central Scotland there are a good amount of local cachers who quite regularly set new ones to find......thank goodness. It must get you down a bit though with them being a wee bit thin on the ground in your local area, especially in the winter. I bet you get some treacherous weather conditions up there, making travelling further afield totally out of the question I'm thinking .

Your handicrafts sound a great hobby too though PF, what sort of things do you like to make?
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"Better to try all things and to find all empty, than to try nothing and leave your life a blank".... Charlotte Bronte.

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[Mousekakat]

Oh man, what to say.

If you're being painfully honest, then so can I, I guess.

I see a lot of myself in you, 'new' country, kids, isolation, weather, etc., so I understand a lot of what you're going through and I'm going through it myself.

I take anti-depressants for a disease that I have that has depression as a symptom of it, I've got polycystic ovarian syndrome and it's a metabolic/hormonal disorder. Through the years the syndrome has gotten a bit better in some ways, but the depression seems to just get deeper and deeper as the years go by.

This is really, really hard.

*deep breath*

Things here aren't the greatest. Our finances are so bad that the national credit agency here is drawing money from Micke's paycheck to put towards our debts and we get more mail from debt collectors than we do from anyone else. I went unemployed a few months too long and we just slipped off the edge. We're recovering, but it's going to take us at least a year to dig out. Speaking of jobs, I like my job, for the most part, at least when they aren't trying to micromanage things, but I haven't been for a week now. I just can't. I want to. I even tried to earlier in the week, but after 3 hours of reading the same sentence over and over and over and trying to understand what it meant I admitted defeat and came back home. About 3 weeks ago I had a meltdown in the middle of the kitchen floor, bawling and bawling and crying my eyes out. It happened again yesterday when I was on the phone with my boss letting her know what was up. I'm waking up long enough to look at a book for a little while, surf for a little while, eat a little bit and then go back to bed. The weather here SUCKS right now, too. Autumn in Sweden means grey skies, cool/cold weather (we've had freezes overnight alredy) and rain more often than not. It's dark now between 5 and 6 pm.

I realized yesterday that since I moved here Nov 4, 1999, I've had TWO daytrips that were only for me and one overnight trip to a friend's house and that was the only time that I've been 'just Naomi' and not mamma, wife, or anything else but me, since I moved here.

There's so much more that I just can't bring myself to lay out in the open here, my signature on GC.com eludes tp part of it, but there's even more.

Telling you this doesn't change how you or I feel, but the one thing it does is let you know that you aren't alone feeling this way. and that I really do understand where you're coming from since I lead such a similar life, being a transplant and all.

Please feel free to holler if you need me!

Hang in there!

Naomi :wub: (someone add a fricken heart emoticon here!!)

[Mousekakat]

Wanted to add, but didn't want it to get lost in an edit.

This post was a catalyst for me.

After making it, I got on the phone and called the doctor. I broke down totally on the phone with 2 nurses and also with Micke, and I'm now going in to get some help. I've got an appointment in an hour.

PF, don't let yourself get this low, there is nothing wrong or nothing to be ashamed of with depression. Call your doctor, make an appointment, find yourself again. I'm going to!

*hugs*
Naomi

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[paganfrog]

hiya everyone, please theres not any reason to be deeply concerned for me. i am not clinically depressed.
i will never let myself get so depressed that i end up harming myself or feeling suicidal.
i was like that a few years ago and after going on some anti-ds for a while and talking about things to someone i gradually got myself sorted.
so since that time i have never ever got that bad again.

this funk is just a bit of a low time for me, its nothing serious i promise you. i just have the tendancy to get self pitying these days. i have nothing in my live that will push me into depression, i am happy, i have my family. im happy.
all that does get me, is the weather and lack of non-prickly trees to hug and meditate under.



so thanks you all, its great just blurting this all under the anonymity of the fact that none of you have really met me.

im not going anywhere. im still a coin geek and here is where i will continue to lurk.